Dont Let Others Creat Who You Are

 

 

 

 

Creating Yourself

 

 

Today in class we were shown several pictures of images and had

to describe what we saw. The image that stood out to me was the

image of the man sitting on the ground drawing a picture of how

he should look like. I guess this picture stood out to me because

now days a lot of people have a hard time trying to figure out who

they are as a person and they always shape themselves by what

they see around them. In this picture the man’s hair is a bright red

which to me means that he wants to be different and stand out

but he still is unsure about the rest of him. As he sits on the

ground, to me that means that he is looking down at himself trying

to find a way to make him look perfect that’s why one part of his

leg is shaded in and the other part isn’t. also the man isn’t wearing

any shoes and I think that means that even though he is still trying

to figure himself out and thinks he is coming together as a person

he still doesn’t know how to support himself, that’s why he is not

wearing shoes, because if he had shoes his feet would be

supported and he would be able to support himself. The thing that

also stands out to me is the green pen; this symbolizes all the color

he is trying to add in his life. His life is so black and white that he

needs some excitement in his life. This is how I see it other people

could have a different perspective.

Last Chance To Dance

 

   My senior year at Eastlake High School I was giving the opportunity to choreograph for Eastlake High schools dance show called Last Chance To Dance. I was able to pick the people I wanted to be in my dance and also the song I wanted to do.
 
   I spent about a total of two weeks choreographing and blocking the whole dance. I did it to WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN by RIHANNA, I don't know why i picked that song, I guess it was because it was one of those songs that when you turned one the radio you would just start singing it.

  The weeks leading up to last Chance To Dance I was under alot of stress, not sleeping or eating right which lead to me not being in the greatest mood. At the time I was also choreograhing my senior piece for my dance class.

   Trying to figure out what costumes to wear, who should wear what, and were to place people in the dance, it was alot of work!!!!!


  With all of that going on I was also in six other dances, and had to worry about what I was going to wear for those pieces. even though I was stressed I kinda liked being stressed out because I know that I'm doing something right.

  It was two days before the actual show and we had our dress rehearsal and was giving the line up of the show.... So as I looked at the line up I saw that three of the six dances I was in were back to back and the other three were apart by one dance, which meant that I only had about 25 to 30 seconds to run back stage get dressed in my costume and redo my hair, then to run back on stage again. THANK GOD it was only a dress rehearsal because I didn't make it in time. because I didn't make it I had to get dressed in the wings(the side of the stage) where it was completely dark, I couldn't even see what I was putting on. I had to have a few people help me get the right costume and to do my hair all in about 30seconds..... it was the biggest rush i ever had, but i loved it.

   Next thing I knew it was the day of the show I was finally feeling good and not stressed out, I was very happy until......... I got a call saying that one of my dancers for Where Have You Been was not able to perform due to an injury. I really thought I was going to die, it was 45mintins until the show and I still had to do my hair and make up which meant that I had only ten mins to re block(choreograph) a 4 mins.dance. at that point I was ready to just start crying I went into panic mode.

   But being the person im I took control and was able to finish on time. That night was the most stressful night of my life,but I would do anything to relive that night all over agian.

Just Be Yourself

                                                       




When we are little many of us were teased because we were to short, to Tall, to Skinny or even to Big.

I was teased because I was always more toned then everyone else. The reason why is because I was in cheer, dance, and gymnastic. I didnt have the body of a normal 7 or 8 year old.



                                                        

Up untill the age of 14 I was very small and I was very toned then most kids. It was so bad that kids started saying I was on steriods and would tell peolpe not to talk to me.

This would really make me sad but, I got over it most of the time.
my family moved alot so I wonted stay in one school for a long time so I was used to people not liking me and saying things about me.

As I got older cheer, dance, and gymnastics became more popluar in school and I would not feel so bad because other people started to look the same way I did.


These things I'm very passionate about, and as I got older I learned not to care what people thought about me as long as I had what I loved I would be just fine.

This was my life I didn't know what it was like to not do these things because I started at a very young age.
No matter what anyone says dont let them bring you down for doing something you love.


If  someone ever says anything about your apperance just shrugg them off and dont let them get to you.

If you love what your doing dont ever Stop.
                                                         
                                                      

The Big Question

 

 

 

 

 

 

Will you marry me?

 

 

These are the words that I heard on May 27, 2012. Three days before my graduation day one of my

bestfriends that moved to Texas to go into the military came and surprised me for my graduation.

The night of the twenty-seventh at eight at night a heard the door bell so when I went to go answer

and it was him my bestfriend that I haven't seen in months.

 It turns out that a few days before he came  to California he called my parents and asked for my hand in marriage and my parents said that he was crazy.I'm only 19 years of age and he is 22 and we were just to young to get married.


Although he is my bestfriend I know for sure that he is not the one for me. I never had to be put in an awkward situation like that before. I was thinking to my self as he pop the question, what in the HELL is this boy thinking, what made him think that I would want to marry him, and why on earth would he want to marry me?


I never knew he cared about me so much that he would want to marry me, I know that I never thought of him to be more then just a friend. I didn't know how to say NO, but I didn't have to say anything just the expression on my face gave it all away. I felt really bad because i broke his heart

but at the same time he wasn't the one for me. I never want to hear Will You Marry Me in a long time now those words haunt me, because I never want to be put in that awkward situation again. 

 

 

 

                                                                

 



Gone But Never Forgotten

 

 

 



 

 

Have you ever lost someone that meant the world to you?


 Well I have on July 27,2012 He was one of my closest friends that I ever had and died at the age of 19, he loved life and was full of happiness.

For the privacy of him and his family I will not say his named or the way he died,but I don't think I have to just the way I talk about him everyone who knew him knows who I'm talking about. He was the highlight of every ones day, always wanted to cheer people up, and did what ever he could to help people out. He was a class clown and always knew how to put a smile on my face.                                                                                                                               


  He was an amazing dancer ever known to man and had a heart to cover the Grand Canyon.

  I always wondered why bad things always happen to good people and i don't think I'll ever find out. I just want him back, but that's not going to happen. I feel the only way I can connect with him is dancing for him. I have been working on a dance just for him to relieve the pain.

 
 I never knew that the last time I saw him was going to be THE LAST DAY  I ever talked to him
again. 

 He was traveling in Rome when it happened and never even made it back to say goodbye.

   When I was told the news I felt like my heart stopped working. I think and dream about him every day and even when the wind blows I feel that's him with me. Its been hard for me to deal with the pain, but I've learned to take it a step at a time. 

One day I was walking to class and I saw a truck that looked just like his truck and just for a split second I wished that when the truck past by it was going to be him in it. I think and dream about him everyday and he will always have a special place in my heart.

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  This is the song I'm going to dance to hope you all enjoy it.

 

Today is just one of those days!!!!
Your always on my mind.
R.I.P bro.

Do For You and Not For Others

Thandie Newton, a well known actress, once said

"Embracing Otherness,Embracing Myself."

One of the main points was to stay true to yourself and embrace what you were born with.

Don't try to change who you are to try to fit in. We are all different in our own little ways,but that doesn't mean we can go around judging others.

As a child Newton had a hard time embracing herself  She felt that she didn't belong. Her dad was white and her mom was black and she was the only black girl in her school.

Everything was different about her, from her skin color, to her hair, but that doesn't mean she should get treated any different than anyone else, but Newton did.

As a result of getting treated differently she to turned to dance to express her emotions. 

As a dancer myself, I would say this is the best thing that could ever happen to Newton and for me too. 

                                                                                   
Dancing is something most people do for fun, but they never realize what it does for you emotionally.

Dancing is like living in a whole different world.

For me dancing is something I was born to do.

I don't have to do it.

I need to do it.....

Without dancing I don't what I would be doing with my life now.

Although I turn to dance to express my feelings, other people might not.

Find something that you enjoy doing and lets you let go of all of your emotional expression for example playing basketball, football, tennis or even painting.