Just Be Yourself

                                                       




When we are little many of us were teased because we were to short, to Tall, to Skinny or even to Big.

I was teased because I was always more toned then everyone else. The reason why is because I was in cheer, dance, and gymnastic. I didnt have the body of a normal 7 or 8 year old.



                                                        

Up untill the age of 14 I was very small and I was very toned then most kids. It was so bad that kids started saying I was on steriods and would tell peolpe not to talk to me.

This would really make me sad but, I got over it most of the time.
my family moved alot so I wonted stay in one school for a long time so I was used to people not liking me and saying things about me.

As I got older cheer, dance, and gymnastics became more popluar in school and I would not feel so bad because other people started to look the same way I did.


These things I'm very passionate about, and as I got older I learned not to care what people thought about me as long as I had what I loved I would be just fine.

This was my life I didn't know what it was like to not do these things because I started at a very young age.
No matter what anyone says dont let them bring you down for doing something you love.


If  someone ever says anything about your apperance just shrugg them off and dont let them get to you.

If you love what your doing dont ever Stop.
                                                         
                                                      

The Big Question

 

 

 

 

 

 

Will you marry me?

 

 

These are the words that I heard on May 27, 2012. Three days before my graduation day one of my

bestfriends that moved to Texas to go into the military came and surprised me for my graduation.

The night of the twenty-seventh at eight at night a heard the door bell so when I went to go answer

and it was him my bestfriend that I haven't seen in months.

 It turns out that a few days before he came  to California he called my parents and asked for my hand in marriage and my parents said that he was crazy.I'm only 19 years of age and he is 22 and we were just to young to get married.


Although he is my bestfriend I know for sure that he is not the one for me. I never had to be put in an awkward situation like that before. I was thinking to my self as he pop the question, what in the HELL is this boy thinking, what made him think that I would want to marry him, and why on earth would he want to marry me?


I never knew he cared about me so much that he would want to marry me, I know that I never thought of him to be more then just a friend. I didn't know how to say NO, but I didn't have to say anything just the expression on my face gave it all away. I felt really bad because i broke his heart

but at the same time he wasn't the one for me. I never want to hear Will You Marry Me in a long time now those words haunt me, because I never want to be put in that awkward situation again. 

 

 

 

                                                                

 



Gone But Never Forgotten

 

 

 



 

 

Have you ever lost someone that meant the world to you?


 Well I have on July 27,2012 He was one of my closest friends that I ever had and died at the age of 19, he loved life and was full of happiness.

For the privacy of him and his family I will not say his named or the way he died,but I don't think I have to just the way I talk about him everyone who knew him knows who I'm talking about. He was the highlight of every ones day, always wanted to cheer people up, and did what ever he could to help people out. He was a class clown and always knew how to put a smile on my face.                                                                                                                               


  He was an amazing dancer ever known to man and had a heart to cover the Grand Canyon.

  I always wondered why bad things always happen to good people and i don't think I'll ever find out. I just want him back, but that's not going to happen. I feel the only way I can connect with him is dancing for him. I have been working on a dance just for him to relieve the pain.

 
 I never knew that the last time I saw him was going to be THE LAST DAY  I ever talked to him
again. 

 He was traveling in Rome when it happened and never even made it back to say goodbye.

   When I was told the news I felt like my heart stopped working. I think and dream about him every day and even when the wind blows I feel that's him with me. Its been hard for me to deal with the pain, but I've learned to take it a step at a time. 

One day I was walking to class and I saw a truck that looked just like his truck and just for a split second I wished that when the truck past by it was going to be him in it. I think and dream about him everyday and he will always have a special place in my heart.

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  This is the song I'm going to dance to hope you all enjoy it.

 

Today is just one of those days!!!!
Your always on my mind.
R.I.P bro.

Do For You and Not For Others

Thandie Newton, a well known actress, once said

"Embracing Otherness,Embracing Myself."

One of the main points was to stay true to yourself and embrace what you were born with.

Don't try to change who you are to try to fit in. We are all different in our own little ways,but that doesn't mean we can go around judging others.

As a child Newton had a hard time embracing herself  She felt that she didn't belong. Her dad was white and her mom was black and she was the only black girl in her school.

Everything was different about her, from her skin color, to her hair, but that doesn't mean she should get treated any different than anyone else, but Newton did.

As a result of getting treated differently she to turned to dance to express her emotions. 

As a dancer myself, I would say this is the best thing that could ever happen to Newton and for me too. 

                                                                                   
Dancing is something most people do for fun, but they never realize what it does for you emotionally.

Dancing is like living in a whole different world.

For me dancing is something I was born to do.

I don't have to do it.

I need to do it.....

Without dancing I don't what I would be doing with my life now.

Although I turn to dance to express my feelings, other people might not.

Find something that you enjoy doing and lets you let go of all of your emotional expression for example playing basketball, football, tennis or even painting. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Change Change

 

From White to Black

 

From Brown To Blue

 

 

 

 

Chameleon Brown by Lou Syguia is a poem about changing your appearance to fit in with people in your life. In today society appearance is everything, you cant even walk outside your house without someone judging you. Everyday of every moment you are getting judged by someone. Getting judged often leads to bullying especially in schools, everyday you always here of some little boy or girl killing them selves because they are getting picked on in school. people have to understand that everyone is different and they need to except that.

 

 

In the poem Chameleon Brown it says "change change like a chameleon do from white to black form brown to blue" this means that if your not one color than you need to change yourself to fit in with others. Why should anyone change who they are and what they look like to be excepted. In Chameleon Brown it also says "that clothes are not the skin of the man just as skin is not the essence." this means that it shouldn't matter what you were but whats on the inside.

 

 

When I moved to California, I notice that fashion was a big thing out here. If you didn't dress a certain way,  people wouldn't talk to you. I wasn't used to people getting made fun of because of what they wore. It was a big culture shock for me. Being the person I'm I did not adjust well to California's style and I knew that who ever talked to me is because they liked me for me and not what I wore. Its been 6 years and I still have they same friend that I did when I moved out here and I can say that they will be by my side through thick and thin. Change is a big part of life and you have to go through it everyday of your life, but remember change what needs to be change don't change yourself to someone you're not.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dance Saved My Life  

 

 

 

 

 

 

Since I was little my educational journey has been very challenging. Struggling with a form of dislexia I have been set back in many ways. Over the years I have learned how to overcome obstacles that were in my way. Although I still have dislexia, it has helped me be a stronger and better person.

My disability has made school very difficult for me and it takes me longer to get the hang of things than it would a person without a disability. I always knew that i was different and sometimes felt like an outcast. feeling like an outcast helped me turn to dancing. when I dance it's like I become a new person, I feel free and I know it's something I'm good at. When I dance, I can connect with people in different ways i never thought was possible.

  Dancing has helped me not only to express myself but has helped me with my educational studies. Before I started dancing my grades were on the low side and I hated going to school. With dance in my life my grades went up to a 3.5 G.P.A and I couldn't wait to school started. In a way, dance has saved my life and has turned my life in a different direction from the music I listen to, to the people I hangout with. Dancing has played a big part in my life and has made my educational journey a great experience.





Everyone has struggles through out there life and you should always remember to keep your head held high no matter what happens.